Sunday, July 31, 2011
being emo~
7 mths into my job.....
sometimes im real tired of my job. physically tired. i work like 12 hrs a day with onli an hr break. sometimes i even go for 30mins. and there's no OT pay. =.=" so tired...
i feel that i have no time for myself, no time for family, no time for frens. anyway i tink im drifting apart from all my best frens too.
ever since i started this job, i tink i have been out with my frens during weekdays for a total of less than 10 times!!! can u imagine... its like once a mth. sometimes i dun even go out once a mth (during weekdays la..)
my life has been extremely BORING.. start work at 8am... end work ard 8pm. sometimes earlier, sometimes later. its very hard to fix a time to go out with frens after work too lor. every sat is half day work... but working hrs is frm 8am to 3+pm. tat is HALF DAY?!?!?!???!??
see... sunday is my onli rest day.
anyway, i keep getting sick during this 6 mths. body has been weak. am i overworking?
the other day, i was really unwell at work. but i cannot go and see the doc until everyone has come back from their lunch break (fyi, we do rotating lunch breaks. nobody goes lunch tog.). so i have to FORCE myself to work and work and work, with a tired and cold body, until its my lunch time (ard 2+pm). so i tried to settle my stuffs asap before going back home to see the doc. but suay suay, there's some problems. =( so i went ahead to see the doc nearby my workplace. the doc took my temp and was shocked that my temp was so high and ask y i onli came to see him onli now. erm.. i told him i need to work. so he gave me mc for the day and the nxt day. but i still need to go back to work to settle the unsolved problems. haiz..
ended up, i onli went home ard 630pm. struggling to keep myself 'alive' at work. tats how jialat my job is. haiz..
the good thing abt this job is... i dun have to bring work home. there is very little KIV brought forward to the nxt day. i hate to work from home and i hate KIVs.
throughout these few mths, there are some newcomers. but have left and will be leaving soon. nxt mth, another 2 new colleagues will join us. its very saddening to see people come and go so fast. u can easily build a relationship with someone, but its hard to see them go. haiz.....
anyway no one can be trusted in ur job. even ur managers. some managers are like bastards while some are like angels. i hope i will be like the angel manager. =)
soon, i will be having a different jobscope which im still uncomfortable in. but i'll try hard.
i wan to get big bonus!!!! dunno how long i have to wait~~~~~
today, im feeling abit emo.... cos i really find a distance btwn me and my best frens. some got attached. and i seriously dunno y all my frens who got attached are soo attached to their partners. there is a huge change of feeling which i dunno how to describe. like in the past, we can be so open, but now.... very cold.
some even forget its my bdae. every year celebrate my bdae with the same bunch of ppl. just becos we hardly meet up, nobody ever remembers. =(
and the onli people who remember are those who are not sincere in being friends. sometimes i even feel that all these 'friends' are more caring than my real friends.
im such a loner now....
im tinking.... maybe i sld do some changes in march....
7:14 PM