Friday, December 5, 2008
a date with darling
aye... i told him abt the bad news. he said its ok. it made me feel worse. actually i dunno wat i expect him to say either. if he were to say smth bad, i'll feel bad too. haiz. i feel so guilty.
i wan to avoid. said i am goin to bath and while im getting my clothes, i cried. i tink he saw it too. didnt wan him to see me cry at all. not now, not later, not ever. cos i tink if he saw it, he'll heart ache.
came out frm the bathroom, he gave me a peck on my forehead and said its really ok. not that i wan it to happen too. i felt bad again. haiz.
i dunno...
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ytd was bad. it was raining v heavily when i was on the way to work. i carried alot of clothes for darling and my paperbag gave way. aiyo.. all the things 'ka lao' lo... on a rainy day somemore. heng i was alady at my office lobby. den a shuai ge came help me pick up my stuffs. lolz.
but still suay la. cos i didnt bring extra paper bag. so gotta use darling's new bag to put all the clothes in lo. i hate rainy days!
and when i finished work and was abt to board the train, some indian auntie pushed me in the train. kns. she muz be blind. the train looked like its filled with sardines. i was on the phone lo. and when i ended the call, there wasnt even space for me to put down my hand. so i jus rested my hand on someone else's bag. haa. but u can see how packed the train was la. angry with the indian auntie lo. rude!
finally met darling at somerset mrt. went to buy tix for Four Christmases den had our dinner at crystal jade. wan shopping after dinner but there wasnt enough time. we onli shopped at watsons lo. there's so many things i wanna buy leh. i wanna buy at least 3 pairs of shoes for now (covered flats, covered heels and slippers), and i wanna buy blusher, i wanna buy scrub, i wanna buy more tops, more dresses... oh.. i need money to buy all these. hahaha..
xmas is coming. means i need to spend alot again. omg!
the movie was ok lo. haa. not bad la. worth the $6. lalala. home sweet home by cab. =)
i reached home and saw 5 missed calls and 1 sms - "Call me". ok, i usually have missed calls la. cos my phone is always in silent mode.
5 missed calls frm the same person within 20mins bah. it reminded me of someone else who'd bombard my phone when i didnt ans it. my highest limit of missed calls within half hr is abt 40+ missed calls. lolz. ok im sorry. sometimes i dun mean to not ans de. but i oso admit sometimes i purposely dun wan to ans. im so dao one mah.
ok and back to the missed calls. called the person back. he said smth abt the past: "以前你不是这样的啊". tat was the past. ppl change. heart change. world is evolving. we have to change ourselves to adapt to the environment.
maybe i really did cared abit since im blogging abt him now. but its in a totally different 心情 of blogging. still hope to be fren with him... jus a normal fren.
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